the Tappan Zee of my childhood blown up today after
an inclement weather delay—the wingspan of that bridge,
its steel body carrying everyone always over the Hudson
to the Jersey side where in winter icicles would form
on the Palisades’ rock walls from mid-drip runoff crystallized
like the sky, which is monochrome stopped-in-time gray and
everyone is currently obsessed with a YouTube video of two
teens trying to figure out how to use a rotary phone while all
the pathways of my youth are coming down into the river
via controlled demolition and my kids are in the yard trying
ice sledding but since we live on a mountain the neighbor’s son
stands on the hill to stop them before they catch serious air
and launch themselves over the ridge while a marine salvage
crew uses chains placed in the riverbed ahead of detonation
to remove the remains and on Facebook everyone is doing
the aging challenge: posting photos of themselves now and
ten years ago to see what time has wrought—to go back—
there is no reverse and yet we live in many time-frames
simultaneously or at once the buzzing of my son’s cartoons
(someone struggling, someone in distress) we already know
what’s at the other end of this—those two teens didn’t think
to pick up the receiver but I know you will always remember
the feeling of your finger in the dial’s aperture, the way we
waited for it to return to us between each number—I can still
hear its inevitable path slipping back—that bridge a flash of fire
then the entire Eastern section dropped into the river and sat atop
the water like whatever is the opposite of a body, like maybe
a crown and the total demolition involved 300,000 tons of concrete
– 47,000 tons of steel – 13,000 timber pilings; the numbers are
unfathomable, yours long gone from memory but when I trace
the arcs over and over, when I finish while untangling the cord
and listen, there you’ll suddenly be again on the other end